tend to be worried about this person I’m constantly working to become. I worry about what people think but only in certain aspects. I worry about the things I say and do, constantly, and how it will affect the people around me.
I spend so much time worrying about this person I want to be, that I don’t think I ever really took the time to figure out who I really am. Sometimes, I think the person I really am peers out and does or says something and I’m always really taken aback, not realizing whatever I’m doing or saying is really coming from me.
Sure, after high school I was able to step out of whatever niche I thought I was stuck in but its not until now that I am able to really “look back” at myself over the past four and a half years and really see how far I’ve come from whoever I was in high school.
I think my problems with myself used to be that I couldn’t see/understand my issues enough to make an effective try to fix them. Now, I feel as though I am able to comprehend my problems its just a matter of actually taking action and doing something about them.
I’ve watched people around me do things that made me jealous, envious, and whatever else comes with feeling like you are stuck somewhere and unable to really do anything about it. I have, finally, grown the courage and realized you just have to do what you want to do and you can’t constantly be worried about everyone else because your life is, in fact, your own.
In twenty days I will be turning twenty-two years old and I just feel as though I am finally ready to move on to a new stage in my life. It’s time for me to start making things happen.