I woke up at noon after staying up till 6 am watching Daria.
I went and shot photos of my friend Alicia ALL FILM.
The weather was wonderful.
I worked a 5 hour shift and none of my customers were mean and I had a really good sale at the end of the day. Not that it matters money wise cause I don’t work on commission but I really helped a guy figure out what he needed.
I found out I made the Dean’s List.
My mom bought raspberry sorbet.
THE BEST PART IS THAT I JUST FOUND OUT THAT ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS IS WINNING HER BATTLE WITH LEUKEMIA AND IS EXPECTED TO BE DECLARED IN REMISSION WITHIN THE NEXT MONTH.
aaaannnnddddd… now I’m about to watch Star Wars cause I just bought the IV V VI box set.
Then there are days like today when I have no idea where it is and it scares me to death because its the only real connection you and I have ever shared. We used to be best friends and we told each other everything and now that we hardly ever talk I hold on to the past so hard that I feel like I’m shutting out the future. It’s because I’ve always been convinced that my future, regardless of anything else would involve you.
Now are the days where I doubt that more and more each and every day.
Sometimes I absolutely hate my cell phone, my computer, my t.v and anything else that links me in to this matrix like system.
However, there are days… like today where I feel so lucky to be part of a generation that has so much information available to us right at the end of our fingertips.
The fact that we as a human race are able to share information in across the entire globe in a matter of seconds is such a wonderful thing for the most part.
I think its an almost magical notion that people are actually able to meet friends, reconnect with family, and even find their future husbands and wives over the internet. I don’t think enough of us stop and realize that we are a generation COMPLETELY different from any other before us. Never has this much information been available to any one person at one time. This is a definite marker in our evolution as humans.
I think all of us have seen or at least heard of the detrimental things the internet has also been a part of but to quote J.K Rowling
In regards to your last post and/or in general - I love you, Jessica Hume, to the moon + back. If I can do anything to help, whether it be a listening partner or a break from reality - don't hesitate to ask. I know you'll be more than okay and back to yourself soon, but know that none of us are going anywhere in the meantime. You're wonderful, really.
Koda Turner, Thank you so much. This just made me cry. Love you.
I can wholeheartedly say that I definitely have been nowhere near my normal self. I acted fine for the most part and very few people actually knew what was going on. I’ve really never been one to share my feelings and thoughts with everyone. I shut a lot of people out of my life in the past two months. Not because I hate them or anything (even though a few of them think that).
I just haven’t been able to handle much other than my own problems right now.
I’ve always been an emotional person I’m just not usually one to embrace it, especially in front of others.
I’m still so sad about everything thats happened, but I also realize that I can’t sit around and feel sorry for myself.
I’m still having a really hard time dealing with everything but I think I’ll get through it fine.
was supposed to be at my wedding, and approve of the guy I eventually marry. She was supposed to see at least one great grandchild. She was supposed to be there to tell me everything was okay. She’s supposed to be here to support me. I miss her so much.