This has been such a shitty year. Things haven’t been good. It’s always the same shit but lately things have been setting me off left and right, I swear. I’ve tried everything to just move on and get past whatever’s been bothering me but I can’t as hard as I try. All that has accumulated over 9…
Dude I want to tell you that once you’re out of high school all of this changes and people suddenly start being good to each other and everything works out perfectly. That doesn’t happen.
Just from reading your posts you are such a mature kid for being in high school. I’m sure you probably hear that all the time so you’re like “yeah yeah yeah whatever” but really its people like you who go out and actually get something done in their lives.
So yeah everything isn’t going to magically get better but I promise you will survive it. You are strong and good hearted.
Everyone has them, but what I’ve realized is that they are all bullshit.
I mean everyone has something that they don’t feel completely confident about, and that is totally okay.
However, I’ve come to the realization that whatever reason we find for other people not to like, love, date or hang out with us isn’t something that should make us feel bad about ourselves.
I mean obviously there are some exceptions for certain people who can’t get over themselves enough to let others in but really.
Have you ever thought something along the lines of "Oh this person wouldn’t date me cause I’m too ugly/fat /skinny/tall/short/smart/dumb/happy/sad/handicapped/ religious/loud/obnoxious/whatever?
It just seems to me that that is all ridiculous cause no matter what problem you have with yourself I bet you that you’ve met a person that has accepted another person that has your same “problem.”
The real problem for all of us is that we aren’t valuing ourselves enough to think about the fact that you are just as valuable as the next person.
YOU ARE A PERSON. A LIVING, BREATHING, THOUGHTFUL BEING
WHO DESERVES TO BE LOVED.
Not all of us find this love so easily, or we have trouble holding on to it.
That is also okay.
The fact that you are still willing and able to look and fight for this love that keeps you human. I think those who have more trouble finding this love are the ones that really appreciate what they have found once they have found it.
So I know there are times when loneliness creeps in and you feel like you’ll be alone forever.
The truth is though, you won’t. As long as you have heart and keep searching one day someone will accept you for all that you are and will love you for it.
Sorry I started genuinely caring about you as a person. I should have realized you were just like everyone else. For whatever reason I thought you might be a little different because there has never been anyone else like you but here I am proven wrong again.
It’s not completely okay yet but once it is I’ll have learned my lesson, so I guess I have that to thank you for.
to my latest creative writing piece. I don’t feel comfortable posting the rest of it right now maybe one day I’ll have that courage.
"I can never sleep in a bed that isn’t my own. I don’t specifically know why, maybe its because the sheets don’t smell right or the pillows don’t have the same consistency. Whatever the reason maybe it usually results in a lack of a significant amount or any sleep at all. "